broken-hearted is NOT the end of everything.

I hate myself now i dont even know why. well actually i do know why but its like aaaaaaaaaahhhh i'm being so stupid and selfish and stupid and selfish and i hate it. i dont know how to explain these thingy but I HATE IT. i hate the way that i make decision so fast and dont ever think about what happens next. see? I'm fckn dumb man. why do i have to be a bitch, while i know that there's someone who cares bout me and all the things i do. I dont even know why i said that 'suicidal words', i thought i'll be okay....... but whaaaaatttttt?????? gua cm bisa nyesel skrg. fak fak fak fak my world turns black hahahaha seriously.. i hate it all.

and this song really really makes me crying out loud..

If you come back to me, I'll guarantee
That I'll never let you go
Can we go back to the days our love was strong?
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong?
Can somebody tell me how to get things back the way they used to be..
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee

(Boys 2 Men - On Bended Knee)

that is what i'm thinkin bout lately. but yeah, its life man. you have to start moving on, trust me you DONT want to spend your life waiting for nothing, and make your heart depends on one person that is not that into you anymore. dont forget about things that we've done..lets just make it a beautiful memories. dont hate him or even yourself, its not anyone's fault, its just how things work,so make that how it supposed to be. and thanks to him, he MADE your life better after all. you were okay when he's not yours YET,right? then he came and made your life full of happiness,but then he walked away from you. and awfully he's already moved on. that wasnt a really happy scene,but come on, dont let it makes you down! you still have your bestfriends,your family, or maybbbbbe your guy friends.

now, all i'm trying to do is Forgive, Forget, and Move on... :)

better listen to this song!

But this time without crying

As she got into her car, she said

No, happily never after

That just ain't for me because finally

I know I deserve better after all

I'll never let another teardrop fall

(Pussycat Dolls - Happily Never After)