the comeback?

omg. OMG HI BLOGGER!!!!!

its been a while, eh? my last post was on the early 2010 and now its almost the end of 2011.

before, i just want to say that i am now a high school student. an official SMA Negeri 70 student. ;)

well... how are you people? :) if you ask me back, im fine. not that fine but yeah. life has been pretty tough to me these past year.

i am not that kind of "omg my life is so this, my life is so that" girl.. but i do cry a lot at night. there was a huge difference between 2010 and 2011. to be honest, i can't wait for 2011 to be over. im not saying 2010 is the best year i've had or whatsoever, but at least i was happy. scratch that, i was SO HAPPY back then. and at least i am not feeling...whats the word... empty?

so.. maybe you're wondering why do i hate 2011 so much (or maybe not)

well i just.. had all these dramas that i myself can barely imagine how does things got so wrong. i've just had enough dramas. i've lost 2 guys that i love the most.. my dad and someone. my dad died on the early february, which that already makes me hate 2011. i still remember feeling soo alone and sad and feels like crying all the time and i remember clearly who was always there beside me to cheer me up. yep its him. but then blame me and my stupid mind, i lost him too. i remember feeling lonely as fuck and im not blaming anyone else. this is my pure stupidity afterall.

basically those are what makes 2011 felt like shit for me. but life goes on.. :)

i haven't moved on, or should i say "i'm not moving on" because i know i can't forget him just because my mind says so.

call me pathetic but i do still love him, i really really do. until God knows when. :)

so it might be until tomorrow, or until forever.

*_*

this is my first 2010 post! hmmmm just a few updates im gonna tell.

i spent my new years eve with alyssa thaya nameera latisha jeje radit adit arvy daffa arvy at FX. it was fun! but i dont know why i like new year 2009 better. you should check my previous previous post about those ;)

my birthday is on january 6th. im already 14 now yeayy! i got umm 3 surprises from my friends. first they sang happy birthday on the school canteen with batagor as the cake. ahahaha and i got something from my special someone. andddd on january 7th they did it again! but with cake!! yummmyy the cake was delicious. when school's out, latisha risha nameera did something for me... they pushed me so i'll get wet (it rains outside)! then i got injury..ahhaha but thats ok. love you guys so much <3

and now i kinda miss school. i skipped school for 4 days long cause my asma is kambuh and radang. gua ga tau bahasa inggrisnya apa. its saturday but i cant go anywhere because of this friggin penyakit.

goin offline byebyebyebyeybeebyebyebyeb

Re-cap

Today is the very last day of 2009.

suddenly I realized that nothing will lasts forever. first of all I remembered about my parents; they won't live forever. and I am NOT their greatest child. not even close....... and I'm sorry mom, dad. I'll try my best to make you both happy :) kiss kiss

2009 is such a great-rollercoaster ride for me. 

got plenty of new friends, also plenty of troubles. 

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I celebrate my birthday with no one on January.

Valentine's on February, still single... til that day.

P-a-r-t-y! on March.

APRIL FOOL. went to Dufan with some friends.

I've had a bad relationship with May. idk why. but it was my mom's burfday.

Anyer, baby! on June, fun fun fun.

July's my favorite. loooong holly-day! I choose Manado as my vacation.

August was my daddddy's day, happy birthday dad:)

September. hhmm what can i say?♥♥ 14!

Another party blast on October. coolism.

November..... ???? nothing's special. too ordinary.

And now, I'm sitting here and gonna go celebrate new years. Here. Now. Writing a blog. on December. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 GUYS!!

RePost from Allegra: Abortion

Month One. 

Hi Mommy!
I am only 3/4 of an inch long,
But I have all my organs.
I love the sound of your voice.
Every time I hear it,
I wave my arms and legs.
The sound of your heart beat
Is my favorite lullaby.

Month Two. 

Mommy,
Today I learned how to suck my thumb.
If you could see me
You could definitely tell that I am a baby.
I’m not big enough to survive outside my home though.
It is so nice and warm in here.

Month Three.

You know what Mommy,
I’m a girl!
I hope that makes you happy.
I always want you to be happy.
I don’t like it when you cry.
You sound so sad.
It makes me sad too,
And I cry with you even though
You can’t hear me.

Month Four. 

Mommy,
My hair is starting to grow.
It is very short and fine
But I will have a lot of it.
I spend a lot of my time exercising.
I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes
And stretch my arms and legs.
I am becoming quite good at it too.

Month Five. 

You went to the doctor today.
Mommy, he lied to you.
He said that I’m not a baby.
I am a baby, Mommy, your baby.
I think and feel.
Mommy, what’s abortion?

Month Six. 

I can hear that doctor again.
I don’t like him.
He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home.
The doctor called it a needle.
Mommy what is it? It burns!
Please make him stop!
I can’t get away from it!
Mommy! Help me!

Month Seven. 

Mommy,
I am okay.
I am in Allah’s arms.
He is holding me.
He told me about abortion.
Why didn’t you want me, Mommy?

Every abortion is just… 

One more heart that was stopped. 
Two more eyes that will never see. 
Two more hands that will never touch. 
Two more legs that will never run. 
One more mouth that will never speak. 

BOO! I'M BORED.

$$$

Good evening suckers.

I'm sooooo bored so I decided to post something new. bahhaha. I just got back from Singapore, w/ my mom, my aunty, my mom's friend, and Jeremy. just call him Amy. I posted something about him and my trip 2 Bandung, click click! he's such a fun&nice guy.

&&&&&& so, I've spent 4 days and 3 nights at Singapore. Sadly my dad couldn't come :( I'm missing him all day long hahahaha. 

THIS IS MY DAD. 

how can I not love him? 

hihihihihihihi:):):)

*****OK LANJOEEDDHH******

pk bahasa indonesia aja ye. kan cinta tanah air (pdhl karna males mikir). ok jadi tgl 21 desember itu gw ke Singapurrrrrr. udh males bgt tu cuman bertiga doang sm mama&tante nia. pasti pd belanja moeloe gw bengong aja kaya org bengong(?) tapi untung aja tante jessy sm amy nyusul. 4 HARI DISANA BENER2 BELANJA DOANG OY!!! bosen bgt beneran... kalo ada bokap bisa jalan2 kmana kek yg seru gitu. ini gk keluar dari daerah Orchard demi Allah paling jauh jg naek taksi ke eprot! sebel gw. ini pertama kalinya gw ke singapur tanpa naik MRT... pdhl kan seru tutut gujes gujes. haha and I bought lots, lots, loooots of chocolates. yummmy.

tante Nia, Amy, gw, enyak gw, tante Jessy

!@#$%^&*BADNEWS*&^%$#@!

suatu hari di toilet hotel holiday inn @Singapur, Rani sedang asik mengaca. lalu ia melihat sebuah timbangan keren (karna ky mekanik gtuu jd naik dulu br dikasitau beratnya pk nomer. tdnya gua kira timbangan rusak g ada nomer2nya). lalu dgn senang hati ia mencoba untuk mengukur berat badannya. mari kita tunggu.

dgn tenang saya menunggu..

TERNYATAA!!!!!

berat gua skrg 54! HAHAHAHA ~_~ NOT GOOD! ┌Π┐┌Π┐┌Π┐

oh iya td I found something. A BOX>> isinya ada barang2 gw jaman dulu kala. ada foto gw sama Breandy anjing gw dulu. tp gw nya astopirulohalajim masaoloh maisaroh jelek bgt ahahah. ada juga tabungan gw tp seribuan dan uang indonesia pas jaman dulu gt. 

ini poto gua wkt msh imut. eh sampe skrg sih :p 

BILANG IYAAA!! iyaaaaaa

+++++AND THIS IS MY FAV PIC+++++

DADDDYYYYY AND MINI ME!!!! :)

gila gila itu foto jaman kapan cobaaaaa? hahahahha gw nya masih ky gitu.. :') bapaaakkk i love you! 

oh ya I bought new pair of shoes. Vans shoes. loved ittttt. thxxx momm. and dad;)! I also bought a new camera. not the very expensive ones but thats okay I still loved it too! thanks again mom and dad. and hmmm I actually bought a silicon for my chromatic iPod, but sadly I was wrong*_* it didn't fits perfectly for my iPod because it was the old one. BUT I bought silicon for the new one (that has camera) uuuhh poor me.............

got nothing else to say baahhahahah this is such a long post.

THANX 4 READING :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS Y'ALL & HAPPY NEW YEAR! 

(potonye sok mecing pake ada salju2nya...HEHEHEHE dan muke gw kaya setan. itu foto lama dan mls poto lg-_-)

abc123u&me

if i'm missing you right now, would u be here?

btw get well really soon, love. u knw i miss u.

Mid Test

ok, back to this gay situation called mid test. never loved it that much, i wish it'll ends quickly. so, this is the second day of mid test. today i've had Bahasa Indonesia and Pkn. well, tomorrow's not a really good day i think BCOS THERE'S BIOLOGY! for god's sake i never listened to pak agus while he's talking because its just... i dont know. its hard to understand. he's like talking to himself. and he looks like cockroach. I MEAN IT. cockroach! but tomorrow's also English...... its a relief. i'm not that bad at english. but hows BIOLOGYYYYYY HUHUH

and maybe i'll just keep on reading this fckin biology book. hey imma workin my ass off!